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He said I was acting like a 4th grader,

lol

I said

"you started it"

 

Last month I got glasses

I am not happy about it.  J knows how insecure I have been about them.  Heck I even kept it from my sister till Thanksgiving day.  J's family loves to play poker at any get together's.  Well for the last year or so I haven't played cause I couldn't read the cards on the table.  well I brought my glasses but didn't put them on till I HAD too to play cards.  well J was an ass and called me four eyes.  I was immediately hurt. but then he did it again I was shocked, so shocked that my hand came up and caught him under the chin.  I know I embarrassed him, but no more than he embarrassed me...  We got into a huge fight that lasted the whole way home.  Once we got home I went to bed with Kiera and ignored him pretty much ignored him the whole nextday, we talked abit when I told him I was about to call one of my friends that he claims I have none of and see if we can stay with them till I get into the projects.  He said he didn't want to break up.  I told him it wasn't up to him anymore, I was tired of being the butt of his jokes and I was about to get the last laugh.  I also told him he was in trouble now cause my feelings are shut off to him.  I am no longer going to treat him like my babies daddy, from now on I am going to treat him like the asshole he is.  I am so pissed right now.   I feel like everyone I counted on in my real everyday life is just here to get what they can get.  I have had issues with J's sister, then drama with my sister, bad thoughts about one of my close friends and now more bullshit from J. 

At least I still have my online friends. 

I know someone is ganna leave me some love. 

Please!!

Look what I got

we all did

 

my girls from grade school

 

My old friends from grade school decided we needed to have a slumber party.  During dinner Tina mentioned matching tattoos.  It took some talking into for 2 of the girls but in he end 5 of us got matching daisy tattoos.  I love it.  I am going in Feb to get 3 lady bugs round the daisy they are for my 3 ladies that bug me..  For Christmas me and my sis and going to get similar tats, her's will mean little sister and mine will mean big sister, we haven't decided on any designs yet.  I love my new tat.  and it is where I can easily see it, YIPPIE.  I am so looking forward to getting the others done. 

 

being with kids 24/7 i need a break

I have managed to get out a couple of times to hang with my friends

Harvest Home Coming

We spent 2 nights at Harvest Homecoming this year. the kids of course loved riding all the rides and this year they were not stop.  even the babies were riding all the big stuff like the tornado, the rock o plane, the tilt a whirl and even the scrambler, i was a nervous wreck the whole night watching them leap from one potential disaster to the next in a single bound.  we managed to get thru both times with out even a single scratch.

 

 

pretty in pink

one of our slumber parties.

we seem to have alot of them lately

the kids just seem to love to come to Aunt Missy's house

J's Bday

we all went to Bearno's for J's birthday this year, it was a good time.  afterwards me and J took home all the neices and we had a slumber party, lol, poor J i am sure he wished for more than a house full of screaming kids....

 

 

Happy 5th Birthday Tori

My Tori turned 5.  She really is growing up on me.  We celebrated both the babies bdays cause we had to skip Kiera's when hers was due this year.  no biggie we just had one huge party, each girl had her own cupcake cake and we had a great day.  It was HOT but we had fun.  each kid got a goody bag with a can of silly string in it, talk about fun, damn I should have gotten some pics of that.  My sis helped me out alot with cleaning and getting ready for the party, I will just skip the whole part about J putting off doing the yard work till the very last day cause he wanted to play golf...... I still had a great day giving my baby's an unforgetable party and I have the pictures to prove it....    lol...

I hope all my readers are oing good.

I was hoping to try to get around some in here tonight, but I have grown really tired and this damned computer isn't fast enough for my sleepy eyes.

love ya all....

Harvest Homecoming 2007 (40 years)

Took the kids to the rides down at Harvest this week.

They had a blast.

The night we went they had braclets for 10 bucks a kid and they got to ride as much as they wanted from 6-9.

My babies are getting to damned big, they both rode the scrambler and the tilt awhirl and the tornado...

over and over and over again.....

good times I hope they will remember for a long time.

 

Today I found out our Dear Sweet Penny is gone, I will miss her so much.

I got on AOL tonight to check on Penny 

 

I was hoping to read that she was at least out of the hospital,  but even if she wasn't I wanted to make a date to visit her. 

 I was really hoping to meet her at the Olive Garden even if I had to settle for the take out menu.  I was ganna leave her a message to let her know that Jan. 3rd she should reserve for me cause I would be in her neck of the woods for a Miley Cyrus concert that night.  I got really happy when I seen she had an entry posted.  I click on it and te page couldn't load fast enough for me, it finally poped up and I found out she has passed away.

  I know I should be thinking that she isn't in pain and suffering anymore cause we know from her blog the last few weeks were doing a number on her body, but she kept her spirit up till the end as far as I know.  She was such a kind hearted woman, she had a way of making all of us comfortable with ourselves so it was easy to spend time reading her journal and getting to know her better.  Any of you who were lucky enough to have her be a reader of your journals like me I knew she was such a good person.  A beautiful lady in a bad world, she always made me feel better about myself, my life. 

 I will miss that... 

 I will missher.......

flat tires

what a week.

 

what a night

 

is it over yet??

Labor Day Weekend Camping @ Guist Cr 2007

We had a really good time camping this weekend.  The weather was perfect.  Sunday was a bit muggy but we kept cool.  The kids had a BLAST.  No one was hurt.  J ran out of beer (which is a good thing cause he wasn't hung over the last day we were there and had to pack). and and even better thing.....  sit down now you wont believe this...  not only did I not let J start any fights with me, but this is the real biggie....   The RV made it.  and made it back home again too.  I almost lost it when J 2~wayed me and said something happened it was making some really bad noise under neath, we were at exit 28 and had to go to exit 35.  I drove with my fingers crossed and praying the rest of the way, and we made it, I was so happy.  That RV has ruined every camping trip we ever took it on, but not this one. I was determined to have a good weekend as a family. 

going back to last year

The readers I have had will remember last year when i went to 4 H Camp with Kandace.  I took alot of little clips from the week we were there.  Another wonderful memory for her to pack in her heart.  She did all kinds of stuff, but most of all we laughed so much our checks and bellys hurt by the days end, there was no falling asleep WE PASSED OUT.  I hope I get to go with her next year.  This year she went to a kiddo camp with her step moms Church.  There was only about 100 kids compared to last years almost 300.  Both years it was dead heat summer hot, but they accommodate the kids with extra swim/creeking time and plenty of bottled water.  but anyway's the reason i am doing a sort of repost about last years camp is to post the video clips montage I just got done putting together.  I have posted a couple videos from that week, and about 300 pictures, but here is the full video clips all together, it's abou 30 minutes long, so I understand if you just wanna go onto the next journal, but if you make it thru to the end, it is pretty dark for a bit, but if you listen you can hear me and the other leaders snuck in on the teen leader the last morning there and soaked her with ice cold water.  its dark cause we didn't want to wake her.  but it is to damned funny, she had been getting us wet all week long every time we turned around she'd soak us with a water bottle, or a water gun she'd sweet talk off one of the little boys.  although her getting us wet in the heat of the day all week wasn't nearly as bad as us waking her with ice cold water. 

 

hope you got the time to enjoy.

lets try something new

this didn't work for my MySpace Blog,

Hopefully it will work here.

It's a couple of little clips from the lake

I put together with a site called motion box.

 

My Babies ride the ski bob for the first time

and they aren't a bit scared..

 

my Girls

Took the girls camping again.

We all had a great time.

I love it when my kids are happy.

And they love to be happy.

it's a great combination.....

My friend tina

 

yeah it was a long time ago.   but~

I am still lucky enough to call her my friend.

This is who I should be at  the race with tonight.

Oh well maybe next year.

 

 

playing with pics

That is my little Tori Janiel.

we call her T.J for short.

or sometimes lt. bird.

That's what the book said it meant.

Tori ~in German = Little bird

which was cool cause J's nick name is J~bird

so little bird fits her really well, sometimes,

like when she is being a complete shit head....

speaking of complete shit heads.

J is sitting in their playing a video game with his brother.

We could be in Sparta Ky

with some of my friends

and some more of my family was ganna be there too

but no he said it was to hot to sit and tailgate all day.

I bet had it been his friends

he'd had a different attitude.

We also could be at the lake with his family.

The RV was running the last time we parked it.

Kandace starts school Thursday

so she'd love to get a couple more days on the lake

but nope, I sit here at the computer.

he sits in the other room with the PS2.

I have to still go to my girlfriends to check on her cats.

She is in Fl. poor thing got the sick

the day before they left.

but hell like i told her

she's still in Fl......

I'd take sick in FL

over healthy and here anyday.

well I have complained enough.

Hope yall all have a great day/nite.

 

playin with pics

Click to play | Make your own Smilebox

OMG!!

This home is worth 2 1/2 million dollars.

Located in Plum Hill.

Very nice.

Billy was just curious about what a home worth so much would really look like.

OMG!!!

Kandace's vacation to Walt Disney World with her Daddy

name game....

the kids were out back playing when they thought this little guy was attacking them, lol, it took me three times of him coming to me before I was comfortable enough to let him land on me, but it was, lol, love AT FIRST SIGHT,

he now has his own little home hanging in a window in my kitchen.

but we need to call him something

send your name suggestions in a reply.

I will do a repost later to let ya know what we choose.

 

We've had him for a couple days now.  We are still fighting over what we should call him/her. 

I want to call him baby, that way if he does start to "talk" I would love to hear someone tell me hi baby everyday.  lol.  he already makes me smile every time I walk in the house and hear his chirping. 

his body is yellow with a beautiful peach/rose colored face, but his tail is a rainbow of colors, red, blue, green, purple, orange it is very pretty, but we only get to see it when he tries to fly.  The girls would have him out all day if I'd let them.  So far we haven't had any poop accidents, but I am sure it will happen sooner or later. 

lol.

 

 

new post in the private journal

from the alley to the Avenue...

Today I went with a good friend to look for a new home.

I am not talking just your average house.

I am talking $700,000.00 homes.....

in ground heated pools....

1 even had a little pool house

home theater's.

6 bedrooms/7 baths.

5 car garages

I was drooling all over myself the whole fucking time....

G.L.A.M.O.R.O.U.S................

 

went out last night

to a little hole in the wall bar right down the rd.

got wasted, then fried.........

ended up out back puking in the alley.

then walked home.........

in the pissing ass rain.

 

Burning down the house

 

I tried to burn the house down yesterday. 

 

Good thing my sis was here.  I put on a pan of water to boil for mac n cheese and then had to go out front to get on the kids for yelling, I heard  my sis say it's on fire, but she was really calm, so I got on the kids 1 more time and came back to the kitchen where sure as a bear shits in the woods the were reaching the cabinet above the stove, m quick thinking sis had already turned the burner off, but the flames were still going.  I tried to smother it with my daughters robe that was hanging on the bathroom door, but it just melted the robe, I then pulled he whole burner off and any other damn day the back door would be open, bu not today, I had to drop the burning stove element and burner plate open the bk door and then I kicked it out the bk door.  In the process of getting the fire out I burned the hell out of my finger, my main typing finger too....  but it's ok I can deal with it, I am scared to death of fires and for me and my sis to stay so calm about it was amazing, I later told her how proud I was of her she said I shouldn't be cause the only reason she appeared to be so calm was cause she was freaking out to bad to talk......

 

and before all the burning water jokes come rolling in...

it wasn't my fault......

J had spilled some oil from the pan I did chicken nuggets in and didn't bother to clean it up, or even warn me, yeah you can imagine how mad I as when I told him over the phone the stove caught on fire and he asked if it was the left front burner, I said yes what did u spill, he said nothing, he later admitted the oil, I am still mad as hell about it, but at least all I lost was my finger print on 1 finger, not my home or for god's sake my kids..

Can anyone teach me how to choke a man with one finger???

What's on your mind

WRITE EXACTLY WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND, AND DON’T CHANGE IT

1. Your ‘ex’ and you are... good friends

2. I am listening to... the bubbles in my fish tank

3. Maybe I should... spend less time doing these questionnaires

4. I love... my kids

6. I don’t understand... Jason

7. I have lost my respect for... mankind

8. I last ate... cereal

9. The meaning of my display name is... my first name.

10. God... is a woman

11. Someday... I just wont give a shit

12. I will always... stand up my friends

14. I never ever want to lose.. my sister

15. My myspace is... something to do when I am bored and I am always bored......

16. I think my life.. could be better

17. I get annoyed when... J won't put out

18. Parties... let's have 1

20. Simple kisses... are the sweetest

21. Today I... woke up and came straight to myspace, lol, already bored.

22. I wish... I could afford a vacation

IS YOUR/ARE YOU

01. is your hair wet?: no,

02. is your cell phone right by you?:Yes

03. do you miss someone?: yes

04. are you wearing chapstick?: no

05. are you tired? No

06. are you wearing pajamas?: no

08. are you mad?: no

09. are you upset?: I am about the little fucks who stole J's break. 

HAVE YOU
01. recently done anything you regret?: spent too much money

02. ever lied?:  I am usually brutally honest

03. ever stuck gum under a desk? a long long LONG time ago

04. ever kicked someone?: Yes

05. ever tripped over your own feet? yes

TODAY HAVE YOU:
01. have you cursed? no, but the kids aren't up yet, lol

02. have you gotten mad at someone?: the Bartender at the Menu Sat. night.

03. is someone mad at you? like I give a shit.

-RANDOM-
Q: is there a person who is on your mind right now? yes

Q: do you have any siblings? yes

Q: do you want children? be careful what you wish for, lol, i got 3 midget monsters

Q: do you smile often?: yes

Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? no

Q: are your toenails painted?: yes, for the first time in years..

Q: are you a friendly person? if i know you.

Q: who’s bed other than yours do you sleep in? my daughters.

Q: what color shirt are you wearing? ty dye, pink blue and green

Q: what were you doing at 7pm yesterday? i think i was eating corn bread with my sister

kinda a repost

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I am deleting some pics from my computer before I delete them I want to have them posted just incase I loose them, I do have then on a disc, but with the way these kids are if they get ahold of it it'll be destroyed.

I wish we were going again this year.

Mom always said I was a pain in the neck... I think I have a pinched nerve

sorry for the delay in entries I have missed ya'll so much.

but I have a really good reason for not posting in here.

other than "myspace" lol.

I have been putting off going to see a dr cause I don't have insurance, well the pain in my back is overcoming the pain of my wallet and I will have to go see someone soon.  11 days ago my sis made me go to the ER, cause after a week of watching me walk around in pain and laying on the heating pad she said I had to go.  I went he hooked me up with muscle relaxes, pain relievers and ibuprofen.  So those have been gone a couple of days now and the pain is reaching the unbearable point for me.  I called the Dr that the ER Dr referred me to and they can't see me till the 26th.  plus I have to have 85 bucks to cover the office visit.  The pain is really bad but the thing that scares me most is that my 2 little fingers and the bottom of my arm up to my elbow are numb, it's been like this for more than a month, but it is gettting worse.  It was really annoying before, but now I can't open anything and my grip with that hand is not right.  I am really scared about the numbness. 

I think it's a pinched nerve cause the pain in my back keeps moving from my neck to my back and then to my under arm.  my right arm feels like I am wearing one f those blood pressure things while the bottom of my left arm and fingers are numb. 

 

Meijer 300 June 16th 2007

It was a last minute thing.  J's buddy scored free tickets to the Meijer 300 race in Sparta Ky.  So we all loaded up in 2 vehicles, 1 for the guys, and 1 for us girls.  I met 2 really great gals who I hope to see more often. I got to see my aunt and her crew.  They got tickets pretty much as soon as they went on sale and we got better seats than they had, FREE.  The babies stayed with J's mom and my sis stayed here with Kandace and Tay.  The last race me and J went to didn't end to good.  He got jealous over one of his buddies that was with us.  This time we didn't get into it, but on the way home the car riders got swaped and I had to listen to J talk about the Chris Cornell concert with a couple of his buddies that was there also and I had to hear how over and over again how it was the best night J has ever had, which just goes to show how much an ass he is, cause that was the night he basically accused me of screwing someone in the bathroom I ended up leaving the concert and sitting in the parking garage for almost 2 hours.  But it was the best night of his life.  Today he was to hung over to join us to his mom's house for a fathers day cook out.  The kids were already there so me and Steph went on over with out J.  We had another great day full of fun that the kids will remember for the rest of their lives and once again J isn't a part of those memories, and it's his own fault.

After the cook out swim party was done Steph and I took our dad his fathers day gifts, we got him some new shoes and some socks to go with we also got him a GRANDPA shirt from the kids.  He was really into it today.  It was good to see him so happy.  I wish I could have spent more time there tonight but the kids were getting fussy and tired. 

 

LOL I can't forget to tell ya this, the driver last night had to slam on the brakes and it looked like we were ganna hit the car ahead of us, lol, instead os saying oh my God, I said OMG....   can we say to much time online,

it made for a good laugh...

Today I got a new shirt.

It says

"I'm Famous on MySpace"

lol,

I know I am a dork no need to leave comments to that effect.

 

Pictures from Derby

I know these are over a month late, but at least I aint telling ya'll I am a month late on my well moody part of the month.  It was a great day, till J, lol, bet you knew that was coming, but yep J got all pissy with the kids for cheering for their moms and dads throwing cornhole, well I jumped his ass for jumping theirs and then I hit nothin but holes in and won my  it was the second game and also my last game.  I haven't played with them since and I won't anymore,  It sucks cause I am really good, but he always gets pissy about something or someone and I get the grunt of his pissiness. 

to my friends

I can't tell you how much you all mean to me.

 

 

Tori

Pictures from Thunder over Louisville

Pictures from back in April

pics from March

These are pictures back from March when Me and Kandace went to my uncle's place.  I have a feeling I am getting ready to have to reformat my computer so I wanted to add the pics I don't want to lose.

Today at the lake

 

Told ya we were having a great time at the lake

I will probly have more tomorrow.

NO rain dances PLEASE!

yesterday at the lake

 

We have been having a great time at the lake.

Today we went back and I got a pass for the season.

The kids LOVE it there, they even picked the pass to the lake over passes to Kentucky Kingdom, Yeah me!! cause passes to Kentucky Kingdom would have cost me my first born, the pass to the lake was only 36 bucks for all of us and whoever else I can fit in my van.

 

 

first walk on treadmill

It took me 27 minutes to do a mile.

I am very happy with it.

Baby steps.....

time to start working out again.

I got a new desk for my computer. It is a really big wrap around corner desk. I even hung some little tikki lite’s to make it more of a cozy atmosphere. I bought the lights for camping but pulled them out and taped them up. It is much better at night than the bright harsh light on top the desk. I also bought a treadmill from J’s sister. I wanted a YMCA pass so I could get “away “ from the kids to work out, but considering I couldn’t even get a month pass for the $25 it cost me I had to get it while I could. I know just more stuff to clutter the house, but I know I will use it for this summer at least. I can’t tell you how motivated I am to get rid of this extra flab I’ve been carrying around the last 2 years. Lol, 4 years.

I just got a new bikini last week too and it is cute, it’s a black and white print with hot pink ties. Yep a string bikini, fuck it folks I am a great mom and wear my battle scars of motherhood (stretch marks) proudly. Besides after seeing what was at the lake last week I feel pretty damn good about my big old body these days. What I am not feeling good about is the Dentist. I have to go SOON. My gums have been bleeding when I brush heck I can push on my gum with my tongue and make it bleed. I ask my sis if she could talk to the Dentist she works for and see about getting me in on a payment plan since I don’t have any insurance. I spent more than 20 bucks today for a new toothbrush and some floss and some pic things and all the works. Nothing but salt water has helped. Well I am going to get on the treadmill for awhile with the headphones up as loud as they will go so I’ll probly go to bed with a headache and wake up sore.

Deams Lake

I can't remember if I mentioned going to the lake Wend. and again on Thursday.  The kids had a great time and I have pics to prove it. 

 

The Lake isn't as busy as it used to be back in the day, or at least it wasn't on the 2 days we were there.  I like it less busy.  I think me and my sis are ganna make it an every Wend ritual, gives us something to look forward to each week.  It would be nice if there was a cute little life guard to gaze at every now and then, but it is swim at your own risk now.  Not to happy about that, but maybe that's why it's not so busy, hey I watch my own kids anyway. so no biggie.

 

 

LET'S PLAY BALL

My oldest daughter is playing ball again this year.  She is not only having a good time, but she is really good at it too.  I am so proud of her, she is a really good sport, but then again that is easy when you are good at it.