time realy does fly.

ok so the last entry was made at the beginging of summer vacation.  This entry is being done on the very day I regidstered the kids for school.  WHERE THE HELL DID SUMMER GO?

I have been busy keeping the kids busy. 

oh yeah about 2 weeks ago we were at camp.

well there is athis bridge that I have wanted to jump off of for years now.  I finally did it.  sad thing is I broke my tail bone.  I am in so much pain I can't do a damn thing around here.  J is bitching that I am milking it, that I am not really hurt i just want an excuse to get out of house work.  OMG i want to break his neck.  I am not faking this.  I hurt, and I hurt something bad......

 

so much has happened this summer.  my kids are all swimmers now.  I am so proud of them.  they also go down the big slide at the aquatic center.  even though keke isn't tall enough she can swim and i let her do it, lol, till the bitchy life guard comes on duty and mesures her, boy was she pissed when they told her she couldnt go down the slide anymore. 

We got a new kitty.  A bobcat, he looks just like sylvester, lol, but cause the bobed tail i call it bobbit, lol, get it, bobbit and the bobcat....   i know I am warped....  i thought all bobcats were male, but this one is a she and she is so freaking adorable.  wish i could post some pics but my laptops are down and this comp only has my old pics on it.

 

OMG the highlight of my summer so far has got to be the Crue fest in INDY.   a group og like 10 of us rented a van for the venture is was awesome...  got pics i can't post from there on here on my m,yspace if you wanna check them out.

 

ok its getting late and the pain meds are wearing off, so i am heading for bed,   (or should I say the couch)

 

have a wonderful day

i havent forgotten any of you

just got to many kids to be here as much as i used too

but school starts in 2 weeks............

I'll be back............

times flys when your having fun

school is out for all my kids now.  Tomorrow ought to be fun with all 3 home and no food in the fridge.  Guess we will need to go to the grocery early.  I have been on a whirl wind the last couple weeks.  Kandace got so many awards on awards day it was awesome.  She also made straight A's.  I am so proud of her.  Next year she will be a 5th grader.  Man that baffles me having a kid in the fifth grade.  wow my 30 something's are coming to a screaming halt.  My babies wont be in the same class next year Tori is old enough now to move onto kindergarten, keke however, will have to do another year cause she isn't old enough yet.  All my kids have done 2 years of head start. 

Not to leave ya'll on a sour note but things have not gotten any better between J and I.  I am actually at a lose with him.  I can not get thru to him.  I am to the point where I am about to do something drastic I fear it will change our lives forever but also I feel I have no other choice.  I am going to have to break his heart for him to respect mine again.  I know I am taking a chance but I would rather lose him forever than go on the way we have been.  I sleep on the couch more often than not.  we barely eat dinners together anymore.  we haven't been out in months, but he goes out with his friends and i go out with mine.  which is not something I want us to give up but we really have to make time for each other or we will drift farther apart.

 

ok I don't even want to talk about it any more

thinking on going onto bed.

 

I will try not to stay gone so long next time

missed ya'll

added a new entry

I have added some new entries in my other journal.

Here's the link if you don't have that one on alerts.

 

http://journals.aol.com/thisismis72/MissysMidgets/

 

Thanks.

Missy

my baby turned 4

she had a crazy party with about 16 kids

they had a great time and she loaded up on gifts

and even got a few new bruises......

Ceasars Indiana

A friend of mine took me to the gamblin boat for my birthday

 no we didn't win big

but we had great fun.

 

i am crawling out from under my rock

 

OMG!!  it has been FOREVER.

I have missed all my good friends here in J-land.

where to start??

uhmm,,, my back/neck are doing better.

and that's about all that is doing better.

I wont lie and say i have been to busy

same shit different day

I just haven't felt like cramming cyber space

with a bunch of complaining. 

so lets see we got thru Christmas

and the new year was fun

my oldest daughter turned 10

I turned 36

and my youngest turned 4.

 

days keep turning into weeks, then months then years

and they seem to be going faster and faster.

 

J and I still don't see eye to eye on alot of things

and it seems we waste more time fighting than making up.

I told him yesterday with tears in my eyes that I am just not happy anymore, I don't know what I am going to do about it.  All I know is my life is passing me by and all i want to do is cry.

i know it sounds selfish but I told him if he can't be the man i want i don't want him at all.

he did stop drinking whiskey, but he is still drinking beer all the time.

we had many battles about the whiskey and he finally found out i was serious after the night i kicked the coffee table across the room spilling all the drinks and ashtrays and whiskey in front of his friends.  i also told him 1 more time and i would call the police and have him escorted out of his own home.  I am not putting up with it.

ok enough about all that

see I can't come here with out complaining.

 

 

 

Go ELF yourself

I did.      check it out...

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9596339524

continued from last entry

He said I was acting like a 4th grader,

lol

I said

"you started it"

 

Last month I got glasses

I am not happy about it.  J knows how insecure I have been about them.  Heck I even kept it from my sister till Thanksgiving day.  J's family loves to play poker at any get together's.  Well for the last year or so I haven't played cause I couldn't read the cards on the table.  well I brought my glasses but didn't put them on till I HAD too to play cards.  well J was an ass and called me four eyes.  I was immediately hurt. but then he did it again I was shocked, so shocked that my hand came up and caught him under the chin.  I know I embarrassed him, but no more than he embarrassed me...  We got into a huge fight that lasted the whole way home.  Once we got home I went to bed with Kiera and ignored him pretty much ignored him the whole nextday, we talked abit when I told him I was about to call one of my friends that he claims I have none of and see if we can stay with them till I get into the projects.  He said he didn't want to break up.  I told him it wasn't up to him anymore, I was tired of being the butt of his jokes and I was about to get the last laugh.  I also told him he was in trouble now cause my feelings are shut off to him.  I am no longer going to treat him like my babies daddy, from now on I am going to treat him like the asshole he is.  I am so pissed right now.   I feel like everyone I counted on in my real everyday life is just here to get what they can get.  I have had issues with J's sister, then drama with my sister, bad thoughts about one of my close friends and now more bullshit from J. 

At least I still have my online friends. 

I know someone is ganna leave me some love. 

Please!!

Look what I got

we all did

 

my girls from grade school

 

My old friends from grade school decided we needed to have a slumber party.  During dinner Tina mentioned matching tattoos.  It took some talking into for 2 of the girls but in he end 5 of us got matching daisy tattoos.  I love it.  I am going in Feb to get 3 lady bugs round the daisy they are for my 3 ladies that bug me..  For Christmas me and my sis and going to get similar tats, her's will mean little sister and mine will mean big sister, we haven't decided on any designs yet.  I love my new tat.  and it is where I can easily see it, YIPPIE.  I am so looking forward to getting the others done. 

 

being with kids 24/7 i need a break

I have managed to get out a couple of times to hang with my friends

Harvest Home Coming

We spent 2 nights at Harvest Homecoming this year. the kids of course loved riding all the rides and this year they were not stop.  even the babies were riding all the big stuff like the tornado, the rock o plane, the tilt a whirl and even the scrambler, i was a nervous wreck the whole night watching them leap from one potential disaster to the next in a single bound.  we managed to get thru both times with out even a single scratch.

 

 

pretty in pink

one of our slumber parties.

we seem to have alot of them lately

the kids just seem to love to come to Aunt Missy's house

J's Bday

we all went to Bearno's for J's birthday this year, it was a good time.  afterwards me and J took home all the neices and we had a slumber party, lol, poor J i am sure he wished for more than a house full of screaming kids....

 

 

Happy 5th Birthday Tori

My Tori turned 5.  She really is growing up on me.  We celebrated both the babies bdays cause we had to skip Kiera's when hers was due this year.  no biggie we just had one huge party, each girl had her own cupcake cake and we had a great day.  It was HOT but we had fun.  each kid got a goody bag with a can of silly string in it, talk about fun, damn I should have gotten some pics of that.  My sis helped me out alot with cleaning and getting ready for the party, I will just skip the whole part about J putting off doing the yard work till the very last day cause he wanted to play golf...... I still had a great day giving my baby's an unforgetable party and I have the pictures to prove it....    lol...

I hope all my readers are oing good.

I was hoping to try to get around some in here tonight, but I have grown really tired and this damned computer isn't fast enough for my sleepy eyes.

love ya all....

Harvest Homecoming 2007 (40 years)

Took the kids to the rides down at Harvest this week.

They had a blast.

The night we went they had braclets for 10 bucks a kid and they got to ride as much as they wanted from 6-9.

My babies are getting to damned big, they both rode the scrambler and the tilt awhirl and the tornado...

over and over and over again.....

good times I hope they will remember for a long time.

 

Today I found out our Dear Sweet Penny is gone, I will miss her so much.

I got on AOL tonight to check on Penny 

 

I was hoping to read that she was at least out of the hospital,  but even if she wasn't I wanted to make a date to visit her. 

 I was really hoping to meet her at the Olive Garden even if I had to settle for the take out menu.  I was ganna leave her a message to let her know that Jan. 3rd she should reserve for me cause I would be in her neck of the woods for a Miley Cyrus concert that night.  I got really happy when I seen she had an entry posted.  I click on it and te page couldn't load fast enough for me, it finally poped up and I found out she has passed away.

  I know I should be thinking that she isn't in pain and suffering anymore cause we know from her blog the last few weeks were doing a number on her body, but she kept her spirit up till the end as far as I know.  She was such a kind hearted woman, she had a way of making all of us comfortable with ourselves so it was easy to spend time reading her journal and getting to know her better.  Any of you who were lucky enough to have her be a reader of your journals like me I knew she was such a good person.  A beautiful lady in a bad world, she always made me feel better about myself, my life. 

 I will miss that... 

 I will missher.......

flat tires

what a week.

 

what a night

 

is it over yet??

Labor Day Weekend Camping @ Guist Cr 2007

We had a really good time camping this weekend.  The weather was perfect.  Sunday was a bit muggy but we kept cool.  The kids had a BLAST.  No one was hurt.  J ran out of beer (which is a good thing cause he wasn't hung over the last day we were there and had to pack). and and even better thing.....  sit down now you wont believe this...  not only did I not let J start any fights with me, but this is the real biggie....   The RV made it.  and made it back home again too.  I almost lost it when J 2~wayed me and said something happened it was making some really bad noise under neath, we were at exit 28 and had to go to exit 35.  I drove with my fingers crossed and praying the rest of the way, and we made it, I was so happy.  That RV has ruined every camping trip we ever took it on, but not this one. I was determined to have a good weekend as a family. 

going back to last year

The readers I have had will remember last year when i went to 4 H Camp with Kandace.  I took alot of little clips from the week we were there.  Another wonderful memory for her to pack in her heart.  She did all kinds of stuff, but most of all we laughed so much our checks and bellys hurt by the days end, there was no falling asleep WE PASSED OUT.  I hope I get to go with her next year.  This year she went to a kiddo camp with her step moms Church.  There was only about 100 kids compared to last years almost 300.  Both years it was dead heat summer hot, but they accommodate the kids with extra swim/creeking time and plenty of bottled water.  but anyway's the reason i am doing a sort of repost about last years camp is to post the video clips montage I just got done putting together.  I have posted a couple videos from that week, and about 300 pictures, but here is the full video clips all together, it's abou 30 minutes long, so I understand if you just wanna go onto the next journal, but if you make it thru to the end, it is pretty dark for a bit, but if you listen you can hear me and the other leaders snuck in on the teen leader the last morning there and soaked her with ice cold water.  its dark cause we didn't want to wake her.  but it is to damned funny, she had been getting us wet all week long every time we turned around she'd soak us with a water bottle, or a water gun she'd sweet talk off one of the little boys.  although her getting us wet in the heat of the day all week wasn't nearly as bad as us waking her with ice cold water. 

 

hope you got the time to enjoy.