school is out for all my kids now. Tomorrow ought to be fun with all 3 home and no food in the fridge. Guess we will need to go to the grocery early. I have been on a whirl wind the last couple weeks. Kandace got so many awards on awards day it was awesome. She also made straight A's. I am so proud of her. Next year she will be a 5th grader. Man that baffles me having a kid in the fifth grade. wow my 30 something's are coming to a screaming halt. My babies wont be in the same class next year Tori is old enough now to move onto kindergarten, keke however, will have to do another year cause she isn't old enough yet. All my kids have done 2 years of head start.
Not to leave ya'll on a sour note but things have not gotten any better between J and I. I am actually at a lose with him. I can not get thru to him. I am to the point where I am about to do something drastic I fear it will change our lives forever but also I feel I have no other choice. I am going to have to break his heart for him to respect mine again. I know I am taking a chance but I would rather lose him forever than go on the way we have been. I sleep on the couch more often than not. we barely eat dinners together anymore. we haven't been out in months, but he goes out with his friends and i go out with mine. which is not something I want us to give up but we really have to make time for each other or we will drift farther apart.
ok I don't even want to talk about it any more
thinking on going onto bed.
I will try not to stay gone so long next time
missed ya'll
