time realy does fly.

ok so the last entry was made at the beginging of summer vacation.  This entry is being done on the very day I regidstered the kids for school.  WHERE THE HELL DID SUMMER GO?

I have been busy keeping the kids busy. 

oh yeah about 2 weeks ago we were at camp.

well there is athis bridge that I have wanted to jump off of for years now.  I finally did it.  sad thing is I broke my tail bone.  I am in so much pain I can't do a damn thing around here.  J is bitching that I am milking it, that I am not really hurt i just want an excuse to get out of house work.  OMG i want to break his neck.  I am not faking this.  I hurt, and I hurt something bad......

 

so much has happened this summer.  my kids are all swimmers now.  I am so proud of them.  they also go down the big slide at the aquatic center.  even though keke isn't tall enough she can swim and i let her do it, lol, till the bitchy life guard comes on duty and mesures her, boy was she pissed when they told her she couldnt go down the slide anymore. 

We got a new kitty.  A bobcat, he looks just like sylvester, lol, but cause the bobed tail i call it bobbit, lol, get it, bobbit and the bobcat....   i know I am warped....  i thought all bobcats were male, but this one is a she and she is so freaking adorable.  wish i could post some pics but my laptops are down and this comp only has my old pics on it.

 

OMG the highlight of my summer so far has got to be the Crue fest in INDY.   a group og like 10 of us rented a van for the venture is was awesome...  got pics i can't post from there on here on my m,yspace if you wanna check them out.

 

ok its getting late and the pain meds are wearing off, so i am heading for bed,   (or should I say the couch)

 

have a wonderful day

i havent forgotten any of you

just got to many kids to be here as much as i used too

but school starts in 2 weeks............

I'll be back............

times flys when your having fun

school is out for all my kids now.  Tomorrow ought to be fun with all 3 home and no food in the fridge.  Guess we will need to go to the grocery early.  I have been on a whirl wind the last couple weeks.  Kandace got so many awards on awards day it was awesome.  She also made straight A's.  I am so proud of her.  Next year she will be a 5th grader.  Man that baffles me having a kid in the fifth grade.  wow my 30 something's are coming to a screaming halt.  My babies wont be in the same class next year Tori is old enough now to move onto kindergarten, keke however, will have to do another year cause she isn't old enough yet.  All my kids have done 2 years of head start. 

Not to leave ya'll on a sour note but things have not gotten any better between J and I.  I am actually at a lose with him.  I can not get thru to him.  I am to the point where I am about to do something drastic I fear it will change our lives forever but also I feel I have no other choice.  I am going to have to break his heart for him to respect mine again.  I know I am taking a chance but I would rather lose him forever than go on the way we have been.  I sleep on the couch more often than not.  we barely eat dinners together anymore.  we haven't been out in months, but he goes out with his friends and i go out with mine.  which is not something I want us to give up but we really have to make time for each other or we will drift farther apart.

 

ok I don't even want to talk about it any more

thinking on going onto bed.

 

I will try not to stay gone so long next time

missed ya'll

added a new entry

I have added some new entries in my other journal.

Here's the link if you don't have that one on alerts.

 

http://journals.aol.com/thisismis72/MissysMidgets/

 

Thanks.

Missy

my baby turned 4

she had a crazy party with about 16 kids

they had a great time and she loaded up on gifts

and even got a few new bruises......

Ceasars Indiana

A friend of mine took me to the gamblin boat for my birthday

 no we didn't win big

but we had great fun.

 

i am crawling out from under my rock

 

OMG!!  it has been FOREVER.

I have missed all my good friends here in J-land.

where to start??

uhmm,,, my back/neck are doing better.

and that's about all that is doing better.

I wont lie and say i have been to busy

same shit different day

I just haven't felt like cramming cyber space

with a bunch of complaining. 

so lets see we got thru Christmas

and the new year was fun

my oldest daughter turned 10

I turned 36

and my youngest turned 4.

 

days keep turning into weeks, then months then years

and they seem to be going faster and faster.

 

J and I still don't see eye to eye on alot of things

and it seems we waste more time fighting than making up.

I told him yesterday with tears in my eyes that I am just not happy anymore, I don't know what I am going to do about it.  All I know is my life is passing me by and all i want to do is cry.

i know it sounds selfish but I told him if he can't be the man i want i don't want him at all.

he did stop drinking whiskey, but he is still drinking beer all the time.

we had many battles about the whiskey and he finally found out i was serious after the night i kicked the coffee table across the room spilling all the drinks and ashtrays and whiskey in front of his friends.  i also told him 1 more time and i would call the police and have him escorted out of his own home.  I am not putting up with it.

ok enough about all that

see I can't come here with out complaining.

 

 

 

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